叶うならば。 あの頃に戻って全てをもう一度正しい方向へと導きたい。 運命を変えて、強い私に生まれ変わる。 今度こそ、もう一度だけ…。 そんな願いは、空から舞ってきた純白で冷ややかな粉雪と共に、消えた。 消したいのか?私は弱く、脆く、情・欲・観念に支配されやすい。 残酷なまでに痛々しい現実から目を逸らせたらな。 地面に落ちて消える運命の粉雪に、私の悔恨を重ねて、溶けて消えるとでも? 0347Ugly sinner chasing the wreckage of time ◆fCJEkftduU 2020/12/20(日) 17:49:10.73ID:ssWbb7HR Now I am trapped in ugly regret that cannot be expressed in the beautiful words of confession. Why is that? There are three reasons. Let's explain step by step.
First, about the cross stuck in the upper back near the neck. When I committed a small sin two years ago, it stabbed me severely and suddenly with pain. At first, it hurt so much that his face was distorted, and it was as if he was telling him to regret his sins. No matter how small a sin, punishment will occur. This guy taught me that. The pain lasted for about 3 months and then mysteriously disappeared. It returned to the same sensation as a pure body before it was pierced. Sin has already assimilated with me. I interpreted that as such. Someday it melted into my body and my body was guilty and punished. However, I could not forgive "the piercing of the cross" and "the sin". Temporary curiosity has invited evil. I was content with it. I'm weak If I could bring the regret I have now at that time ... 0348Ugly sinner chasing the wreckage of time ◆fCJEkftduU 2020/12/20(日) 17:50:32.79ID:ssWbb7HR Next, I wish I could make a certain choice a little faster. The road I just chose is very comfortable to walk on. But that's because he chose an unfamiliar path in the past and failed. That is why I wanted to walk this path sooner. ... this is a childish regret. At that time, obsessions dominated my brain and thoughts, causing me to choose the wrong path. I'm stupid. The existence itself is inconsistent and probably humorous. I wish I could be trapped in the sea of misery and lose my life right now. But I can't do that. I'm timid and very shallow. Being swept away by greed, you are quickly dominated by all negative ideas. 0349Ugly sinner chasing the wreckage of time ◆fCJEkftduU 2020/12/20(日) 17:52:21.03ID:ssWbb7HR Finally ... this would be a great deal of shame to say. But I dare say. I belong to a faction and argue with a rival faction ... I was defeated in a terrible and ugly "quarrel". The cause could be clarified immediately. I simply lacked my knowledge. The other party was one good. With a childish attitude, he made a savage turn while being manipulated by passion. He broke an already small faction and invited him to defeat. Even though he was said to be a spy sent by an opposition faction, he made a stupid and ridiculous turn that most humans would believe. To be honest, this regret is probably the greatest. It cannot be compared with the other two. If I were stronger. If you are an adult. If you are mature. If the knowledge was so rich that it would overflow from the brain. Various "Tarareba" wrapped my body gently and rigorously. Every day, I shed salty tears like the Dead Sea. I bit my lips so much that I was afraid that blood would overflow and turn purple-navy. His face was dyed with regret and his eyes were painfully swollen. My brain always returned to that time and was tainted with the delusion of going around brilliantly. ...... The biggest regret was made by the most silly thing. 0350Ugly sinner chasing the wreckage of time ◆fCJEkftduU 2020/12/20(日) 17:53:19.87ID:ssWbb7HR I thought I was a little more logical, calm and mature. However, in reality, while wearing absolute zero, it gradually undermines my mind, body, and thoughts. Just inorganic. Just like nothing. I broke my immature and stupid. I was made aware of it. The world is not something that I can move freely. Drowning in a sense of versatility peculiar to adolescence, narcissism swelled with a great deal of misunderstanding about oneself. The false blessings and praises of those around us spurred it.
If it comes true. I want to go back to that time and guide everything in the right direction again. Change your destiny and be reborn as a strong me. This time, only once again ... Such a wish disappeared with the pure white and frosty powder snow that flew from the sky. Do you want to erase it? I am weak, fragile, and easily dominated by emotions, desires, and ideas. I wish I could look away from the cruel and painful reality. Even if my regret is piled up on the powder snow destined to fall to the ground and disappear, it melts and disappears? 0351時間の残骸を追いかける醜い罪人 ◆fCJEkftduU 2020/12/20(日) 17:54:48.91ID:ssWbb7HR 今、私は美しい告白の言葉では表現できない醜い後悔にとらわれています。 何故ですか? 3つの理由があります。ステップバイステップで説明しましょう。